What makes you unique?
Honestly, this is something I struggle with. Every human walks around with the hubris inherent in the system of narcissism that we’re taught pretty much from birth. “You are a special little flower.” To a certain extent, the combination of genetics, experiences, and preferences that make up your identity are probably quite difficult to reproduce exactly. In a way, most of us actually are little snowflakes.
So what makes me “unique”? My octopus collection goes beyond jewelry into items as unusual as a big ass shower curtain. I have 4 Polaroid cameras, so I guess that’s officially a collection as well. I have a lot of craft stuff. Like a controlled amount, just on the rational side of hoarder. I can recite Billy Madison, Happy Gilmore, UHF, and Kung Pow pretty much line by line. I’ve seen a lot of concerts and shows. I went to a Creative and Performing Arts High School. I’m a very awkward human, but I’m pretty good at getting people to laugh. I know a lot of trivia about conspiracy theories, religion, and The Masons.
Otherwise, I guess most of it would be the combination that makes me who I am. But I don’t really think I’d want to be actually be someone else. Maybe have their life, in so much as to have their resources, or not have some of the challenges that I live with. Otherwise, I’m pretty content. It could be better, but it also isn’t that bad.
Something you feel strongly about.
I’m probably the furthest thing from an activist, but one of the things I’ve always been on board with is equal rights for the LGBTQ community and women’s issues. They are close to my heart because they directly affect my friends and myself.
I go to see the Pride parade every year and I’ve been watching the slow nation wide legalization of gay marriage (and I’m very excited that Pennsylvania was NOT the last state to allow it, I was worried for a minute). I have a lot of friends of varying sexual preferences and I hate anything that puts limitations on them.
Women’s issues and feminism affect me directly as a woman. I do what I can to support Planned Parenthood, by utilizing the screening and health services.
Something that feeds your soul.
1. Creating something
4. Spending time with the people I love
Something you have done right.
I’m going to go with taking care of my cats. I’ve kept them alive and happy into their golden years. Sometimes I do feel insecure about their health, because I have PTSD from every surprise trip to the ER they’ve made. But they are old, and sweet, and very affectionate. So I’m going to go on record as saying I raised them well.
Share a fear you overcame.
I used to have awful nightmares. My mother taught me that if I can realize that I’m dreaming, I can alter the dream. That helped sometimes. I also invented elaborate rituals, like specific sleeping positions to conquer my fears of falling asleep. Later on, I learned to tell myself stories to distract my mind.
Share a flaw.
I fight against my depression, my procrastination, and my laziness every day. Some days I do all the things, and some days I’m lucky I get out of bed. I try not to be too hard on myself, but I am pretty ruthless in my evaluation of my worth vs. what I’ve accomplished.
I want to be better than I am. I know that worth is found inside yourself and cannot be measured with any kind of yardstick. But I’m going to keep trying to be a better human.
Share a smile.
End of night selfie at my birthday party.